Очередное письмо, не очередному получателю

Dear God,

Hello, nothing happened. Everything is fine, don worry. Just suddenly felt sad. And just now I thought of you. God ... 

I had almost forgotten Your voice within me, in my heart. But you're there, right? What I would not do it, you're with me.

Grandmother is allright, she is healthy. I'm trying to brighten up her loneliness. How's Grandpa? You care about him, right? How are my favorites? They do not quarrel? Probably not. Fortunately, I'm almost sure of it.Thank you very much for mom and dad. They live bruzhno, however difficult they may be. Thank you. I am grateful for the sisters, for their happy smiles, for their successful destiny. Thank you for your life, presented to me one day.

But, my God ... I can not understand what is happening. Maybe something wrong with me right? Maybe I'm wrong, but I do not feel that it is bad to love a girl. Is it wrong to love another man? Even if he is of the same gender, it's not a bad thing? God, why is it shameful? Why not take it? Why can not perceive the desire to make people happy? It hurts me.

You know how to love everyone. And you do not care who is who. You created lyubey different, you have given us the opportunity to ... You gave us the desire to love. So I wanted to ask a little bit.

Do you know how to love? Do you know how to wake up in the morning to an empty bed? You know how the heart beats in the evening, the thought that we will not close? Do you know? How can you love? What would the pillow fallen every tear was sweeter than honey? You know, with such love is not hard to fall in love and pain. Do you know? No, it's not perversion. No, God, not vicious pain. We are. We just know that we are living under the same sky. Please, give me an answer... Why do we love this way? 

I hope not too distracted by things? I just need some advice, not more. And I would not mind to learn. How do you live? You probably lonely and so many rabotyyu I just wanted to make you smile for a moment.

Your, as doughter

Elen